Wish people new how hard it was for me to get myself out of bed in the morning. I mean physically. Sometimes someone has to help me.
It's pretty hard to focus on the good stuff when you can do simple things like tie up your own laces. This weekend after I left the hospital. I got out of bed three time. Three times in about 50 hours.
Blah blah. I know I have it good. I have a roof over my head. I didn't lose everything in a typhoon. But I don't f**king care. I'm in so much pain all the f**king time. Its f**king consuming. It eats you up. You can't even think straight.
No-ones saying you've drawn a good lot Dani. But it is a bit hard to stomach all the negativity all the time.
We all love you here, and we all want the best for you. But your constant negativity to yourself is only reinforcing the situation and that turns it into a vicious cycle.
If you want to think straight, to tie your own laces and get stuff happening, then the first step to finding the solutions to that is thinking a little less negatively and looking at things with a more positive attitude. I'm not saying you be naive, and I'm not a namby-pamby 'Think Positive! It will change your life!' bullshit artist, but there is something to looking at a situation with an attitude of 'Ok, this is it, now lets fix it' than to simply slump your shoulders and cop out.
As I've said before, if there's ANYTHING I can do for you, please let me know and I will do it immediately
