I am.
But fighting this battle is going to put a lot of pressure on the progress I have already made. Re-living it over and over was causing so much stress on me.
I'd rather put it behind me and continue to pick up the pieces for the future like I have been.
Today I applied for three new jobs and got phone interviews for all three within hours of applying.
I also installed a dating app at the recommendation of my psychiatrist.
This is the option I chose with my psychiatrist, "giving up" is the wrong term, I should not have used it. It's about moving forward, making my own luck from now on.
I also have an appointment with one of the best physios in Melbourne in a few months. The cost nearly made me faint, but worth it.