Yeah, I know it, too. But there's a lot to like about her, and as far as girls go, she has a lot of things I'm looking for. She knows the situation makes me feel rotten, which is why she broke it off once before, but she missed me and I missed her - and so we relapsed and now we're back to where we were before.
I'm under no illusions that she'll actually break up with her guy when she gets home. Even if she believes it now, it'll be hard as hell to dump him in person with tears and promises and begging. And even if all that eventuates, she'll be in South Africa and I'll be in Australia.
So, in the interim, I guess we're kind of friends with benefits. She can't give me everything I want, and I can't allow myself to commit to that. So I'm free to get involved with other girls, but I know full well that it hurts her when I do, so I try to pick them wisely
And, while there are sh*tty days, I do like having the closeness and the other, more fun stuff in my life - even if it isn't perfect, it's better than porno magazines and wrist cramps