The truth of the matter is I feel lousy today.
Normally I'd be on top of the world skyting and going off half cocked.
Calling myself The Whip and how I can crush anybody.
But I feel empty today.
I don't know why.
I guess I'm in my Tim Smith down-mood today.
Wanna know what else?
I made an absolute mess on the train the other night tearing it to shreds.
I hope city rail doesn't see my piece and fine me for littering.
The Sunday Telegraph guy talked to me on the phone yesterday.
He sort of hinted they wanted to come out and take my picture.
He put it to me, do you think your actions are maybe hurting the game.
I had no real reply to this and it bugged the sh*t out of me all last night and today.
I just e-mailed that Chris guy journo from Sunday Telegraph right then.
Wanna read it?
Chris Wilson?
Brett Gaddes here.
The ghost banner guy?
A couple more things.
Did you read today’s Daily Telegraph?
Holy sh*t, my photo’s in the back.
My story made it.
People are listening.
Between me and you, I feel lousy today though.
After the anger and adrenalin effect has worn off I feel bad now.
Chris? Don’t worry about sending anyone to my joint for another photo.
I’m shocked I’m in today’s paper.
It’s caught me off guard.
I thought no one would care.
This is more than I expected.
I’m over-whelmed.
Are you still going to run with my story though in your letters section of the Sunday Telegraph?
Are you letters editor section or sport?
I didn’t send my story to Josh Massoud for today’s Daily Telegraph print so I don’t know how that got there.
You put it to me on the phone yesterday and I quote, ‘do you think your actions are maybe hurting the game,’ end quote.
I dunno it’s kind of an unfair question really.
I’m not taking the heat for what’s happened to Rugby League today.
Those is charge have obviously failed to manage it properly and are too proud to admit to this.
Maybe the question that needs to be asked is, ‘should Rugby League have been marketed with high expectations in the first place.’
They need to concede defeat and get off their high horse and stop this push for expansion which is no different to Super League.
Remember the old saying making the big game bigger?
Maybe that’s their vision though, we don’t want fans to attend, the Sydney clubs will go under and we’ll introduce our ADL and Perth team at their expense.
This would make a good letter to big league or rugby league week.
I might break this above letter down and fire it off to big league mag.
I’m no rabble rouser if that’s what you were asking on the phone the other day, far from it.
And unless someone wants to explain the intricate politics of Rugby League to me then I’ll remain ignorant and head strong in my own beliefs with what’s wrong today how they’re bleeding our game a slow death.
P.S. My Dad bursts in my room this morning calling me a f**k wit and a f**king fool.
You know what? I feel that the top heavies from the ANZ Stadium will probably come gunning for me now.
They've probably got underground contacts and will have me bashed.
In the words of Rollings' 'let 'em come, because at the end of the day it's all about confrontation and destruction.'
I'll be waiting for them.
I thought it'd be really funny to go to the SFS next and take a sign with me that says Coleslaw and comes complete with lid and casing.
I wonder if the ANZ will retaliate tomorrow with a defense letter?
They'll probably paint me as some sort of wise arse.
Oh and yer....didn't I tell you guys they were fudging the figures at that ground?
The Dragons Penrith game last Friday had less than 2000 people there.