Superthread LXXIII: Honouring He Who Shall Not Be Named

[Bazal]

Sport, for me. One of the best things I ever heard about myself was a close friend who said she couldn't understand how I could struggle so much with every day things and then walk onto a field like I f**king owned it. It's something I can't explain but I feel much better competing.

Travel is helpful, I've found. But I did have some severe anxiety in Vietnam for some reason. I think being completely new, it was a weird battle between "this is awesome lets do all the things!" and "holy shit everything here is slightly weird!"

 

[Misanthrope]

I won't go so far as to say I prefer being depressed over being anxious, but it's certainly easier to travel with.

 

[Bazal]

f**k depression beats anxiety every time, for me. I can deal with feeling shit. I'm a stubborn dick at times, and I use that when I'm depressed. I'm able to use my own stubborness and competitiveness to push myself through it, if that makes sense?

Anxiety is so much harder to deal with. It makes me feel so powerless and I can't beat it down with sheer will...if anything it makes it worse

I dunno, that probably all sounds dumb but I know what I mean....

 

[afinalsin666]

I was in a bad place around christmas time, depression was killing me. Tried to go see a psych, was told i wasn't bad enough to see one, needed to be suicidal or hear voices apparently. Started smoking cigarettes again, everything was just spiraling shit. Then on christmas i smoked weed with my uncle, and the week after it was the best i have ever felt. My mind was clear and focused, my adhd was under control, my bipolar was mostly subdued, and my anxiety has dropped. Been smoking ever since. It's really been the only thing i've done that helps even slightly.

 

[Misanthrope]

f**k depression beats anxiety every time, for me. I can deal with feeling shit. I'm a stubborn dick at times, and I use that when I'm depressed. I'm able to use my own stubborness and competitiveness to push myself through it, if that makes sense?

Anxiety is so much harder to deal with. It makes me feel so powerless and I can't beat it down with sheer will...if anything it makes it worse

I dunno, that probably all sounds dumb but I know what I mean....

To each their own. I beat my anxiety into submission by trading worry for resignation. I don't let anything stress me anymore, but the trade off is I don't feel much of anything else. Not a lot of highs in my life, which is saying something given I'm in the middle of a nine country tour I'm not paying for.

 

[Bazal]

See, I don't stress. Which I know sounds weird, given anxiety.

But I'm relaxed as shit. I remember when I first found out about the anxiety and all that and the few people I told were like you are the least stressed human alive. Obviously I'm not but I never stress about work, or uni, or life in general...I was made captain of my cricket side in the first place because I was always chilled out and clear of thought.

But behind that I just always have this mildly anxious (at best...panicked at worst) feeling that has no rhyme or reason or place

 

[Cliffhanger]

I'm with Baz, I find anxiety much more difficult to deal with plus I usually find I can mask depression easily and when something good happens it at least dies down for a second, with anxiety something good will happen and I'll have this ugly feeling that something really bad is about to happen, like when I'm anxious every time I get paid from a client for a PT session, or massage I feel embarrassed and guilty that someone paid me for something they didn't like or think was worth it.

 

[afinalsin666]

I prefer anxiety over depression, just because i can deal with anxiety better. I am a massive introvert, so i stay away from people when i'm felling anxious, even stop posting here because i'm paranoid i'll sound like a shitmerkin. But depression i can't deal with. It stretches out time. 5 minutes feels like two hours, and that whole time i obsess on how shit i am. And that'll last for weeks with nothing i can really do to help it.

 

[Misanthrope]

It's all about degrees of severity, I guess. It's going to vary person to person. My anxiety was bad, but rarely bad enough to hugely impact my life.

My depression on the other hand...

 

[Bazal]

Absolutely. I've always been anxiety with (or leading to, depending on the doctor) depression...anxiety for me was always the worst, where depression just kind of came in the bundle...

 

[Didgi]

I have a very large, very patriotic boner for Richie Porte

 

[Bazal]

...says Didgi as Porte cracks on the climb

 

[Didgi]

The amount of effort he's put in tonight and the last day or two he deserves a good rest. Superb rider and it's only a season or two before he starts really challenging the classics to go with his good form otherwise

 

[Bazal]

I dunno. He's obviously a very good rider but I'm not sold. He shat his pants as the GC rider in the Giro...granted he had woeful luck as well, but he had a shot last year at the tour when Froome went down early and did very little.

He's kind of on the edge for me. I'd love to see what he can do as a GC rider with a top team around him, but at the same time I'm not sure he's a genuine Grand Tour contender.

 

[Misanthrope]

Boooooring

 

[sensesmaybenumbed]

Boooooring

That's a sure sign that your mental health is OK..

Now, if you found the Tour riveting, then I'd say that's reason for concern.

 

[Twizzle]

yeah, cricket is the shit

 

[Drew-Sta]

I just want to give Mis, Cliffy, Baz and AFS a big hug. You guys are too good to have to endure that.

 

[Cliffhanger]

It's snowing here

Took these photos at 5,30am when I realiased

 

[Cliffhanger]

Took this one five minutes ago