Eelementary
Post Whore
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I can't stand it, and I am criminally underpaid.
I, too, suffer from sh*tty job syndrome! There is also a lot of pressure, but seeing as I am outta there as soon as someone offers me something else I couldn't care less lol.
I don't thin I've had a panic attack, fortunately. Meltdowns, however...I have meltdowns quite often. Damn life.
That's what I do now - store manager. It's...Not for me lol.
I enjoy management...I like leading, been captain of a zillion sports teams and was a successful dept manager and another company and whatnot. It was just the total, utter conflict between the way the company I was with expected managers to managed and the way I manage that got me...
I'll admit right now - I can be verbose at times and whatnot, but I am a man of few words; I'm not a 'deliver an impassioned speech to stir up the masses' type of leader, but rather a 'STFU, do what you're here being paid to do and let me do my job' kind of leader. I'm minimising costs as we speak as well as key aspects, but still my style comes under instense scrutiny. I can't take it. The results are there in plain view, yet I still don't get support. Bah.
The problem I found was that my company expected me to be a 'sit back, direct things and watch it unfold" manager...to be cold, calculating, work within a strict framework (with no room for error but also no room for improvement, just to maintain the status quo). Basically, I was expected to be a robot monitoring a computer system that did all the management duties aside from delegation. I'm just not like that... I'm a hands on, get in the thick of it, run everything from ground zero type of manager. I love leading from the front, I love being part of a team as opposed to having a team underneath me and I love putting my stamp on whatever it is I'm running, and I manage by being a part of everything that goes on as well as statistics and feedback, because it gives me a better feel for it. I want to control and co-ordinate everything from within the team and the department. What I don't want is to be some detached entity lording over my staff from somewhere else entirely, with no feel for how the place is running or what can be improved