I am sure mania feels awesome but what goes up must come down
Are the highs worth the lows ?
Yeah to be honest. Don't get me wrong the lows are awful, suicidal ideation, feelings of worthlessness, it can be debilitating. But I'm starting to find when I force myself to climb or workout, I feel a lot better. Its when I'm alone or at home that the lows consume me.
The problem is it can be hard to focus or ground myself when I'm manic, so my ability to function is reduced ifi don't manage to channel my energy constructively. (I learned the hard way fapping all day day is not a constructive way to channel this extra energy when you have assignments to do).
A big motivation for getting help was to find better ways to manage both states without having to use medication, I figured if I could understand it better I could better cope with it better. When to psychiatrist eased my fears that you're never the same again after taking medication and it I'd possible to just trial it for six weeks to see how you go I was willing to give it a go. Then I read about the side effects and stuff and how it primarily treats the mania and I was put off.
