I must be going mad. I thought our performance yesterday was shite, apart from the first 20-ish minutes. It looked identical to our other five performances this year. People keep saying we're improving, we're showing promise, the media keep calling us 'gallant' or 'brave', but I just don't see it at all.
The top class players like AFB or SJ seem to be more concerned about their own individual performance than team performance. I guess that's why there seems to be a void on leadership and direction out there. Weren't we all promised SJ would be providing organisation and structure to our attack? There was one good play yesterday that gave us the Kosi try and then Johnson went back to being the invisible man. Even that flukey play involving Walsh and the DWZ try - it absolutely looked like SJ looked up, had no ideas, and thought "f**k it, might as well pass it inside".
Curran seems to be trying his arse off in the back row but Sironen and Aitken are doing f**k all beside him.
Kodi comes on for 10-15 minutes per game, does absolutely nothing, then shuffles off again. He looks about as interested as an abandoned wheelie bin.
Younger players like Walsh and Katoa look like their coaching is just 30-second conversations of "keep doing what you did when we first picked you". Walsh especially looks like his only role is to provide improvised spark, there's nothing to suggest he's got any structure, any set plays, any identity within the team.
There was one moment yesterday that summed up this team for me. It was within the last couple of minutes, we were 8 points down and at the wrong end of the field. The ball went dead and the Warriors were awarded a 20 metre tap, seven tackle set. I reckon every single other player in the comp would have picked up the ball and headed straight for the 20 metre line at top speed. We just picked up the ball and looked aimlessly around at the ref before ambling up to take the tap. Absolutely zero urgency, zero desire, zero interest. Get f**ked.
I really really want to be wrong. I really want everyone to point out that I'm horribly ignorant and that we're going much better than I'm giving them credit for. I really want our homecoming to be a meaningful celebration and something that can help our push towards a high table finish. But I just don't see it.