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So long as you care more about her (essentially having her by your side is what you care most about, because it allows you to more easily care for her) means that no matter how hard you try to do the right thing by her, all she's going to see is you looking like a miserable merkin and that's only going to make her feel worse.It's not right to you maybe but don't speak for everyone. Everyone else's happiness matters more to me than my own and if that makes me depressed than so be it. I don't want to disappoint anyone. If you only care about your own happiness and disappointment that's fine but don't berate others for not being as selfish as you are.
If my parents were overbearing and forced me to go to church then no I wouldn't go because they are being unreasonable and selfish themselves. If they were genuinely good people and cared deeply for others and for them to be happy was just to go with them to church every sunday then sure, I would go with them. Being with good, caring parents and seeing them happy would make me happy anyway, right? Being an atheist isn't important to me. I don't care about faith at all.
Right now a girl who really hurt me told me she doesn't want to be friends because seeing me and reminding her of what she did makes her feel like shit. And to save the friendship, if possible, I have to hide my own feelings and memories for the sake of her happiness, because in truth I care more about her than I do my own happiness.
How long do you plan to be miserable about this? Do you plan to move on?
Simply put, the more moping around you do, the more you push her away and make her feel bad, which is only going to make you feel worse.
So do something about it, something positive, a happy you, makes her feel less shitty, more relaxed and more happy and that's what you want isn't it?