I thought about posting it in the 'Ask LU' thread, but this is here so... why not.
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For the past few weeks I've been agonizing over what to do with my current girl. She moved to China to teach/pursue our relationship back in October and has had a largely miserable time since she got here. Between constant sickness, not really liking Chinese food of culture, and having a job she doesn't enjoy - she's basically been homesick the entire time.
When she announced her plan to come here, I was very up front about my desire to stay at least another year in China. While the winter and having her here did make me doubt that, of late I've realized I don't want to give up my lifestyle here for anything less than amazing.
We have a lot of fun together. She's silly and immature in a way that amuses me greatly. But we also don't see eye to eye on much and when we do fight, it's usually to the point of 'we're broken up' only for one of us to renege after 10-15 minutes of silence. Despite all of that, I care about her a lot.
So, while she's been in Malaysia, I've been worrying about how to have the talk where I basically say: "I'd love to stay with you if you want to stay in China, but I don't want to leave". Especially given the hypocrisy of being happy for her to relocate here for me, when I won't do the same for her.
Although I needed to make a decision re: re-signing by the end of March, I'd decided to wait to talk to her about it until our Thailand trip. No point ruining it, y'know?
She just texted me after her third day of vomiting on this two week trip and said she has decided she'll go home when my contract ends in late March. So... I guess that's the decision made for me.
Despite the fact I've been thinking about doing it myself for quite a while now, it still hurt to hear it. It's the right thing for both of us - she doesn't belong here (she misses home like mad) and I sure as shit don't belong anywhere else right now.
And so, in about two months time, so ends another chapter in Misanthrope's overly dramatic love life.
