Mental Health

[Happy MEel]

I cannot cope.

I just have this anger inside me they I cannot control. I live this so-called life constantly lashing out, and it takes effort to live life in a way that isn't constantly getting worked up.

I'm seeking help, but it is not working (or working as quickly as I need it to be).

I just don't know what to do any more.

I don't want to be this person any more, but I just don't know what to do.

I'm currently seeking professional help, but the treatment is slow to take effect - I should know, I've sought treatment for twenty years.

I've spoken with counsellors from Lifeline; they've put me in touch with some names that I can reach out to.

And I will speak with them.

But I need a change now.

I just feel hollow, trapped, scared... I've already pushed so many people away. Now, I will likely lose my family.

I just don't have any answers left... And maybe I just don't have any further questions left to ask...

I just want to be normal.

This is so hard to read mate, I can’t even begin to imagine what it’s like to live through. I know it all may seem too hard right now but don’t give up, there are brighter days ahead. It sounds like you’re doing everything you can to get the help you need so be proud of that fact. As Gronk said, don’t hesitate to go straight to Emergency at your nearest hospital if it all gets too much. You’ve got plenty of mates here on the forum so you’re never alone. Take care Eele

 

[Eelementary]

I went to the Nepean Hospital mental health department today, and I'm booked in for an MRI to check my brain.

They've also recommended I see a therapist, which I am happy to do.

I begged them to write me a referral for an inpatient stay at a mental health clinic, and they declined. They said seeing a psychologist is the best step.

I am pretty sure that my marriage effectively ended this morning, and this will impact my ability to see my son - not to mention that I don't want to lose my wife.

I told them all this, but I don't think it got through.

I'm not going to do anything rash, but having lost my wife, and son, and being told that I can see someone in a few days, had taken its toll on me.

My life is unravelling before me as we speak, and seeing someone on Saturday will not help me pick up the pieces now.

Having said that, I do deserve what is happening, because my actions have contributed to it. So I'm not looking for pity.

I just wish the mental health experts could see how desperate things are for me.

 

[Soren Lorenson]

I went to the Nepean Hospital mental health department today, and I'm booked in for an MRI to check my brain.

They've also recommended I see a therapist, which I am happy to do.

I begged them to write me a referral for an inpatient stay at a mental health clinic, and they declined. They said seeing a psychologist is the best step.

I am pretty sure that my marriage effectively ended this morning, and this will impact my ability to see my son - not to mention that I don't want to lose my wife.

I told them all this, but I don't think it got through.

I'm not going to do anything rash, but having lost my wife, and son, and being told that I can see someone in a few days, had taken its toll on me.

My life is unravelling before me as we speak, and seeing someone on Saturday will not help me pick up the pieces now.

Having said that, I do deserve what is happening, because my actions have contributed to it. So I'm not looking for pity.

I just wish the mental health experts could see how desperate things are for me.

Bro, it's not your fault. Do you have someone in your life who you can check in with?

 

[Eelementary]

Bro, it's not your fault. Do you have someone in your life who you can check in with?

I've got mental health issues, but they cannot really be used as an excuse for lashing out at a loved one, even though I cannot control it.

I accept responsibility for my actions, but I need help to ensure they don't happen again.

I lost both my parents, my sister and I have a civil relationship (I'm not comfortable reaching out to her), and my closest friends are now overseas.

My closest, and most trusted, confidante was my wife, but that's probably done.

Even more reason why I begged them to send me somewhere for help.

I'm not ashamed to admit I need help - but I do need the professionals to give me that help.

 

[the phantom menace]

I've spoken with counsellors from Lifeline; they've put me in touch with some names that I can reach out to.

And I will speak with them.

But I need a change now.

I just feel hollow, trapped, scared... I've already pushed so many people away. Now, I will likely lose my family.

I just don't have any answers left... And maybe I just don't have any further questions left to ask...

I just want to be normal.

A good step there mate, though I acknowledge the feelings and difficulties you've expressed.

Good on you for reaching out and typing them in here. You seem an amazingly knowledgeable and friendly person from your posts in this forum over the years I've been reading. It is no doubt hard at the moment, and am sending strength so that you can stay the course - and look forward to your further updates (including your posts about the Eels game tonight!).

 

[the phantom menace]

And just read that you have a couple of days wait to see a specialist, which is not the news you wanted to hear or the immediacy you felt you needed.

But you went to the right place, where the experts and potential answers are, and are connected there to go back very shortly... it must be hard, but sending you the strength to try and take it just one hour and one day at a time until Saturday.

 

[Gronk]

I went to the Nepean Hospital mental health department today, and I'm booked in for an MRI to check my brain.

They've also recommended I see a therapist, which I am happy to do.

I begged them to write me a referral for an inpatient stay at a mental health clinic, and they declined. They said seeing a psychologist is the best step.

I am pretty sure that my marriage effectively ended this morning, and this will impact my ability to see my son - not to mention that I don't want to lose my wife.

I told them all this, but I don't think it got through.

I'm not going to do anything rash, but having lost my wife, and son, and being told that I can see someone in a few days, had taken its toll on me.

My life is unravelling before me as we speak, and seeing someone on Saturday will not help me pick up the pieces now.

Having said that, I do deserve what is happening, because my actions have contributed to it. So I'm not looking for pity.

I just wish the mental health experts could see how desperate things are for me.

Jesus mate. I feel your pain.

I don't get why Napean won't help you. Even an overnight stay in PECC is the least they can do.

Do you have a regular psychiatrist ? Are you on any meds that can deal with your mood ?

At the very least a GP shoudl be able to prescribe you some meds until such time you can see your physchologist.

Anyone can refer you to a private clinic BTW. If you have private health then you are usually covered 100% as it is deemed a hospital stay.

Information for GPs :: The Sydney Clinic

thesydneyclinic.com.au

 

[Eelementary]

I never thought that my life would pan out this way; I'd assumed that I'd be able to

Jesus mate. I feel your pain.

I don't get why Napean won't help you. Even an overnight stay in PECC is the least they can do.

Do you have a regular psychiatrist ? Are you on any meds that can deal with your mood ?

At the very least a GP shoudl be able to prescribe you some meds until such time you can see your physchologist.

Anyone can refer you to a private clinic BTW. If you have private health then you are usually covered 100% as it is deemed a hospital stay.

Information for GPs :: The Sydney Clinic

thesydneyclinic.com.au

I'm on some medication, but I don't think the dosage is working.

I have a psychiatrist I saw, but he basically told me to see a psychologist, which I was already doing.

I just feel as though nobody wants to help me.

 

[Gronk]

I'm on some medication, but I don't think the dosage is working.

I have a psychiatrist I saw, but he basically told me to see a psychologist, which I was already doing.

I just feel as though nobody wants to help me.

It's the psychiatrists job to monitor your progress on the meds. If they are not working then they need to increase the dose or change meds. You should call him/her now.

 

[Eelementary]

It's the psychiatrists job to monitor your progress on the meds. If they are not working then they need to increase the dose or change meds. You should call him/her now.

They're well aware, believe me.

 

[the phantom menace]

I never thought that my life would pan out this way; I'd assumed that I'd be able to


I'm on some medication, but I don't think the dosage is working.

I have a psychiatrist I saw, but he basically told me to see a psychologist, which I was already doing.

I just feel as though nobody wants to help me.

Sounds tough, I think the way your life pans out is likely still positive in the future - it is hard to keep in the front of mind that the way things can pan out is not how it all feels to you right now.

And as this thread proves you're not alone in going through - or having gone through - these type of struggles... I believe (and hope!) you'll start to get the type of help you're looking for - or the help the Nepean experts think will work best for you, knowing that will likely be one step at a time - from Saturday onmwards.

 

[Eelementary]

Thanks for letting me get stuff off my chest, guys. It's been a rough day.

 

[Suitman]

I never thought that my life would pan out this way; I'd assumed that I'd be able to


I'm on some medication, but I don't think the dosage is working.

I have a psychiatrist I saw, but he basically told me to see a psychologist, which I was already doing.

I just feel as though nobody wants to help me.

Mate, please do not think like that. EVERYBODY WANTS TO HELP YOU!
The medical system can be a bit confusing and frustrating at times.
I've found that I've also needed to, at times, make an extra effort to help myself through things.
It hasn't been easy, but I have found a way.
Take a breath. Take another breath. Think about those who love you. Think about those that care about you.
Think about yourself.
You are admired here on this site as a very decent person by everyone. Honest and true to your word.
You are one of the few that I have a very decent, trustworthy respect for.
We are here to help. We are here to support.
We love you.

 

[Eelementary]

Mate, please do not think like that. EVERYBODY WANTS TO HELP YOU!
The medical system can be a bit confusing and frustrating at times.
I've found that I've also needed to, at times, make an extra effort to help myself through things.
It hasn't been easy, but I have found a way.
Take a breath. Take another breath. Think about those who love you. Think about those that care about you.
Think about yourself.
You are admired here on this site as a very decent person by everyone. Honest and true to your word.
You are one of the few that I have a very decent, trustworthy respect for.
We are here to help. We are here to support.
We love you.

Sorry - I meant to say the medical professionals don't seem to want to help. They keep passing me around.

I'm sure I'll get the help I need - I just need to be strong.

 

[Suitman]

Sorry - I meant to say the medical professionals don't seem to want to help. They keep passing me around.

I'm sure I'll get the help I need - I just need to be strong.

And, please be.

 

[Rocket man]

Thanks for letting me get stuff off my chest, guys. It's been a rough day.

Mate everyone who's responded on this page would be happy to help I'm sure.
Take care.

 

[Eelementary]

It means a lot, honestly - especially since having lost my dad (my greatest hero, and source of wisdom), I have nobody to lean on bar you guys.

 

[Twizzle]

we're here mate, day and night

 

[Happy MEel]

I went to the Nepean Hospital mental health department today, and I'm booked in for an MRI to check my brain.

They've also recommended I see a therapist, which I am happy to do.

I begged them to write me a referral for an inpatient stay at a mental health clinic, and they declined. They said seeing a psychologist is the best step.

I am pretty sure that my marriage effectively ended this morning, and this will impact my ability to see my son - not to mention that I don't want to lose my wife.

I told them all this, but I don't think it got through.

I'm not going to do anything rash, but having lost my wife, and son, and being told that I can see someone in a few days, had taken its toll on me.

My life is unravelling before me as we speak, and seeing someone on Saturday will not help me pick up the pieces now.

Having said that, I do deserve what is happening, because my actions have contributed to it. So I'm not looking for pity.

I just wish the mental health experts could see how desperate things are for me.

As someone who works for a local health district (not that one), it is so disappointing to hear that this still happens. As a Health system we need to do better. When you’re in a much better place down the track I hope you let them know your experience so hopefully it doesn’t happen again.

I can’t begin to understand what you’re currently going through but there were certainly times when my kids were young, particularly my first, when I was incredibly sleep deprived that I definitely struggled and wasn’t myself. The good news is that at least from that side of things it does get easier.

It might not seem like it now but perhaps today will give you the space you need to work solely on yourself without all of the other pressures that come along with a young family.

I hope tomorrow is a brighter day for you and even more so, your appointment on Saturday goes well.

Finally, I also hope your family are ok.

Be kind to yourself Mate

 

[Suitman]

As someone who works for a local health district (not that one), it is so disappointing to hear that this still happens. As a Health system we need to do better. When you’re in a much better place down the track I hope you let them know your experience so hopefully it doesn’t happen again.

I can’t begin to understand what you’re currently going through but there were certainly times when my kids were young, particularly my first, when I was incredibly sleep deprived that I definitely struggled and wasn’t myself. The good news is that at least from that side of things it does get easier.

It might not seem like it now but perhaps today will give you the space you need to work solely on yourself without all of the other pressures that come along with a young family.

I hope tomorrow is a brighter day for you and even more so, your appointment on Saturday goes well.

Finally, I also hope your family are ok.

Be kind to yourself Mate

They are kind, wise words mate.
I'm sure @Eelementary appreciates them.
Your thoughts are echoed by all of us from here I'm sure.