RIP Paul Green.
I will never forget the conversation we had at Hunters one night in the height of the SL dramas being played out, I was a young barman then, he was not keen to talk about it or to me for that matter lol but he took time out to set a few things right in my mind and we made a connection even if it was for a moment.. That try against Manly in the semi which we ended up losing but that sticks in my mind and at that moment gave me so much elation and joy. I hope wherever you are, you realise that thats all that matters to me. No judgements here.
On suicide: Some things are beyond our own comprehension, we are a complex and amazing ever evolving species. Reach out, research, serve humanity. Try and find out who you are and what you are. If you are at the end and there is no way out, if you feel that way, make a pact with yourself to help someone in need of help before you go, then help someone else...
That is all there is.